Part 1

Pairing: Sebastian Stan x Reader

Word count: 3,5K

Warnings: Fluff, fluff and more fluff. Also Sad!reader. Subdrop, mentions of BDSM relationship (nothing explicit), mentions of dom!Sebastian and sub!reader, also smut (sweet and vanilla this time)

Summary: You are experiencing your first ever subdrop and Sebastian does everything he can to make you feel better. It’s a lot of fluff and cuddling.

A/N: Okay, so I usually write stories about some light or not that light BDSM dynamics and relationships, but they never really go through the full extent of of a relationship like this. So, this is gonna be a mini series/story with a sequel, which tries to go beyond the smut bit of these relationships.

It was
almost eleven when you woke up, already feeling a bit better. Sebastian was
still sleeping next to you. You didn’t want to wake him, but you had to, most
probably he needed to go home.

Your little
movements eventually woke him up and he was just gorgeous as a sleepy, happy
smile found it’s way to his lips and his clouded eyes fall onto you.

‘Hey,
beautiful!’ His voice was deep and raspy from his sleep, and it just made him
even more gorgeous. ‘Where are you going?’ He asked and pulled you close into a
gentle kiss.

‘It’s
eleven, Seb, I guess you have to go, right?’ The pain in your voice was obvious
and it made him worry again.

‘Only if
you want me to. It’s Saturday tomorrow, so if you want it, I’m happy to stay.’ The
relieved look on your face was obvious and he couldn’t help but smile a little.
The answer only come as feverish nodding from you and a happy squeal. ‘So, how
about a nice hot shower before bed?’

‘Together?’
Your voice was a bit unsure, it’s not like you didn’t want to, you just weren’t
sure about it right now.

‘I’m gonna
brush my teeth until you finish, okay? Than we change. You don’t need to be
alone, but I don’t want you to get tempted too much. Let’s focus on you getting
better first.’ Sebastian pulled you close once again and you quietly thanked to
the starts that he was such a kind and loving human being.

He helped
you to walk to your room in the huge wrap of blanket and collect your PJs and a
shirt and clean boxers for himself.

You were
already under the hot water when he entered to the bathroom to brush his teeth.
The hot water washing over your body brought you even more relief.

‘Did it
feel good?’ Sebastian asked quietly as he gently dried the las drops of water
from your neck and shoulders.

‘Yes, it
was refreshing.’ You grinned for the first time during the night. You loved
when he finished to dry you up, somehow it was always so gentle, he brushed the
towel to your skin with so much concentration and care. It was really intimate.

After you
got dressed he got into the shower, and before you could have finished brushing
your teeth he reminded you to bring some lotion to the bedroom, so he can rub
your sore muscles a little.

‘Come on,
doll, we should get to bed.’ He peppered the top of your head with soft kisses as
he finished drying himself with the towel and escorted you to back to the
bedroom. He made sure that the lights were dim, and the bed was made before.

You got
comfortable on your pillow and let him rub the sentenced lotion into your skin hoping
that the muscles under your skin would regenerate easier this way. You were
half asleep when he was done.

The room
was dark, and you couldn’t resist to cuddle him immediately as you felt the bed
dipping behind you. He pulled your shirt up until your breast, so your bare
skin was pressed against his bare side, and your arm was resting on his flat,
naked stomach, gaining as much skin to skin contact as possible without risking
of you feeling cold.

‘Thank you,
for being here!’ You breathed into a good night kiss. You were laying on his
chest for a while, only moved before you would fall asleep. He couldn’t sleep
cuddling, you knew it, and it wasn’t something you could maintain for eight
hours either. Despite all of this you could feel him staying close to you, resting
his hand on your wrist. You needed this contact even during sleeping, Sebastian
knew this, and it was just fine.

It was a
rare occasion that you actually slept together, because many times your scenes
took place some time during the day, and it was just natural to leave his or
your place. So, it usually happened when you were together at night. After any
scene this closeness, and reassurance was much needed. The names he called you
and the things he said or did felt right during a scene but thinking about it
later often made his question that whether you still love and accept him
despite those things. While for you, who submitted to him over and over needed
his love, to be there with you when you were at your mot vulnerable after the
scenes. You told him your most intense and hidden fantasies, opened up about
things that made you blush even if you just thought about it.

Sleeping
next to him made you feel safe and gave you enough time to feel like yourself
again after being his sub. For him it was just amazing to hold you, to hear how
good he made you feel, how safe you felt with him and despite of being a
beginner in all this you loved his as your dom. The body to body contact felt
amazing, because sometimes your scenes didn’t involve much of that. Sometimes
he was wearing gloves during the whole time, or touched you only with toys, and
your hands were restrained giving you no opportunity to touch him at all. It
was odd. Before starting those plays you could have never imagined a scene
without it ending in rough fucking, but it has happened very often. Eventually you
discovered this kind of sex and intimacy does not necessarily includes actual
sex at the end, at least for the two of you. He usually come and you did when
he let you to, sometimes more than once, sometimes not even once in a week,
sometimes only with toys and sometimes by getting fucked hard and deep. It was
all depending on the things you have agreed on before.

You also
discovered that it involved a lot more talking than vanilla sex, mostly when
you were blindfolded. There was never an exact choreography, so he always
explained his next move to make you feel safe and give you the opportunity to
safeword if it was not okay. These things all added up together when you were
just cuddling for long minutes after a session, or when you happened to sleep
together. You slept close to each other and it felt wonderful.

In the
morning Sebastian woke up first, you were laying on your side, your breathing
slow and even and he had no intentions of waking you up. You needed a lot of rest
now. He moved closer, slipping under your blanket, his arm holing you close as
he let you lean to his chest with an unconscious, content moan. His lips moved
upwards, for the cute sound you just made. It didn’t take much time for him to
fall back asleep, holing you in his arms securely.

A few hours
later you woke up, immediately registering the intense warmth behind you and
the heavy arm on your hips. A content smile found your lips as you pulled
Sebastian’s hand to your lips to pepper it with soft kisses.

‘Mornin’,
doll!’ His sleepy voice come out ragged and deep, right behind your ear.

‘Hey,
handsome!’ You greeted him with a tired chuckle and pushed your body back a
little to be pressed against him fully. It was comforting and you couldn’t get
enough of the way his firm chest pressed against your back and his thighs
supported yours, even if this time his crotch was thoughtfully angled away from
you. His hand gripped your waist when you wanted to push your ass back a little
to feel him.  

He mumbled
something before actually speaking to you. ‘Easy, sweetheart! We just woke up!’
He soothed you.

‘I think I
am pretty familiar with that part of you too, so what is this sudden modesty?’
You asked pouting, and turning to face him.

He took his
moment to take in your sleepy figures and hide it somewhere deep in his mind
for the harder times. ‘How are you feeling?’ He asked, and it was somewhat
answer for your question.

‘I am
better.’ You started to evaluate your conditions. ‘I am not mad at you
anymore.’ You grinned. ‘However, I still feel a bit low, but nothing like
yesterday.’

‘Good.’ The
soft kiss caught you by surprise but you didn’t mind. ‘I still think we
shouldn’t rush things now.’ He added with a squint, as you actively tried to push
your thigh between his.

‘What is a
better way of making me feel better than a nice orgasm?’ You asked innocently
biting your lip.

‘First of
all, I thought we agreed on that I decide on when you can come and I really
don’t think that it would be the right time for a scene.’ He explained as one
of his hands slid onto your face, caressing your soft skin gently.

You didn’t
answer just kissed him slowly. First it was sleepy and lips only than you
flicked his bottom lip with your tongue, before sucking it between yours,
making him instinctly deepen the kiss. Your hands were in his soft, brown hair
tugging it gently, and his were on your hips turning you on your back when your
quiet whimper made him break the kiss.

‘I thought
we agreed on that this would be only BDSM and no vanilla sex.’ He questioned
you whispering, but at the same time you could feel his weight on you. His lips
returned to cover your neck with sweet kisses, making you close your eyes as
your body once freely could react to his ministrations. Your thighs opened
around his thin hips and your hands tried to feel as much of him you they
could. They were in his hair, stroking his neck, arms and back, because, this
was the very first time in two months that you could touch him in any way you
wanted.

‘I just
want you.’

‘That’s
very dangerous, doll.’ His words were in sharp contrast with his acts, as he
sucked a light red mark on your neck and his erection was hot against your
thigh.

‘It doesn’t
seem like you don’t want it.’ You tried to come back at him, but your weak cry
took the edge of your voice as he bit that one point between your neck and
shoulders. ‘Seb.’

‘There is a
reason why it is on the off-limits list, I guess.’ He returned to your lips for
a searing kiss, gently rocking his hips into you.

‘Please, I
want you, I need to feel you, without the restrains, just you, please.’ You
pleaded, lips leaving glistering trails on his light skin, both of you
breathing heavily, your bodies pressed closer together than ever before.

‘This
sounds pretty promising, doll, but I am not sure I can go on full vanilla with
you after this two months.’ The answer died on your lips as he slid his hand
under your shirt, to caress the underside of your breast with his fingertips.

‘Just don’t
think.’ You giggled, because it sounded ridiculous.

‘That’s a
terrible idea.’ Sebastian snorted and bit your neck again to silence you. ‘I
have some new rules.’ He purred into your ear, as he sat up pulling you with
him, making you sit on his thighs. ‘You will use your safe words, if it gets
anything but vanilla, and I want you to enjoy this, in a way to come any time
you are there, no need to ask for permission. I just- Fuck, I just want to make
you come without thinking too much about it.’ He pulled your shirt through your
head and you did the same with his. Two sets of hands roaming on each other’s
bodies, like this was the first time you were touching the other one.

‘I think I
can do that.’ You grinned again, nails lightly scratching his abs as your lips
find their way to his again. Sebastian’s hands were holding you securely, as he
laid you back to the bed, pulling down your PJ pants. His grey eyes were dark
by desire as he looked over you. Fuck. He has never actually looked at you like
this. You were usually restrained, often wearing something, some ropes were
around you at least. You were gorgeous, those pretty eyes clouded by desire,
your cheeks flushed and lips pink. This was
dangerous.

Sebastian’s
weight returned to you pulling a satisfied moan from your lips. ‘I want you on
top all the way.’ Your whisper was mixed with your moans as his hot mouth caressed
your breasts, carefully sucking a nipple between his lips. The way your fingers
was curling in his hair, how your back arched when he switched was
intoxicating. Now he was twisting the other nipple between his fingers and
sucking onto the other one. You were vocal, he knew it, but fuck listening to
you as you were free to do anything you pleased was something different.

Your hands
pushed down his boxers until you could, before he helped you to remove them
completely. You licked your lips as you looked at him freely for a second. He
was strongly built, his muscles tense under his flawless skin and his cock hard
and heavy between his legs. It was so, so long ago you actually wanted a person,
one person, but now you wanted him like your life was depending on it.

Your
blankets were long ago on the floor, the pillows messy around the bed as the
two of you were in a rush for feeling each other as fast as possible.
Sebastian’s skin was even hotter than before, only to leave you longing for him
even more. His steel blue eyes looking at you like he was asking for your
consent, to make sure you haven’t changed your mind. The answer come as a
heated kiss, making him moan quietly into your lips.

Your legs
were pulled up around his hips already as he leaned onto his elbows and grinded
into your heat. He broke the kiss with a light ‘fuck’ to rest his forehead on
yours as he was rocking his hips, the hot tip of his cock brushing against your
clit every time. ‘So, fucking wet, doll, every single time. I love it.’ He
purred into your ears, keeping up with his motions.

When his
whole shaft was coated in your slick he carefully pushed himself to your
entrance. He wanted to say something, anything, but his mind was numb only
registering your soft curves under his body, as you trembled with anticipation,
your hips rocking into his subconsciously.

He was
inside of you with one solid motion, your walls tight and hot around him. He
opened his eyes to look at you to remember your face in utter pleasure as he
bottomed out. Your hands were gripping his back, his shoulders, his everything
as he started to move, with slow deep thrusts.

‘Feeling
good?’ He panted breathlessly into your neck.

‘God, yes.’
Your legs were wrapped around his hips as you clung to him, your lips chasing
his for a hot kiss.

His pace
got faster, and he lifted your legs a bit to pull your butt higher, changing
his angle a bit. Oh, yes. Like this, his cock head was rubbing against that one
spot inside of you. Your eyes opened wide as his name fall from your lips in almost
surprise. Your back arched and he felt you pulsing around him. You were so
close, he knew these mewls and cries too well, and he had no intentions to slow
down or stop to prevent your climax.

He barely
could hold on for a few more seconds after you come your whole body arching and
shuddering, walls pulsing round his painfully sensitive cock, his name like a
mantra on your lips, and it pushed him over. He come so hard his hips lost
their rhythm for a moment before he was rocking into you deep and hard again,
his warm cum spilling deep inside of you. The sweet moans, you have never
really heard before sending new waves of pleasure through your body, prolonging
your own climax.

Sebastian
was breathing heavily, his skin was glistering with a thin sheet of sweat as he
collapsed onto you. It took a few seconds until you could open your eyes to
look up to the most beautiful sight above you. Sebastian’s blissful smile was
still on his lips, his blue eyes hazy from his previous orgasm. He was the
prettiest sight you have ever seen.

‘I love
you.’ You blurred out pulling him onto you with a tender kiss.

‘I-I know.’
He answered still kissing you. ‘I love you too.’ He laughed and kissed you
again, with all his love and care for you, his lips soft against yours,
caressing you gently. ‘I thought you didn’t. I was afraid it was only me, and
if we make love, I’d have been so screwed, doll. I could have lived with being
your friend and your dom, but not this.’ The words were pouring from Sebastian
and he pulled you into his arms, kissing you gently. ‘That’s why I said it’s
dangerous.’ He laughed a bit.

‘I know.’
You reassured him quickly. ‘It’s not just you. I realized it a few weeks ago
only, but I didn’t know how to talk about it. So I was hoping that you feel the
same and like this maybe I can tell you easier.’ While you were speaking
Sebastian pulled out and picked up one of the covers from the ground. ‘I didn’t
mean to just spill it out, like this, but I couldn’t help it. I love you so
much.’ You curled up around him happily.

‘I love you
too, doll. And I have some good news for you.’ He looked down to you with a
smug grin. ‘We are into the same kinky shit, doll.’

You
laughed, laughed so hard, because he was right and he also seemed so serious,
you actually thought it was something serious.

‘Oh, you
gotta be punished for that.’ He joked pressing his lips to your in a passionate
kiss to silence you. ‘Later.’ He added. ‘First, breakfast.’

‘You are
horrible.’ You growled and rolled out of the bed.

‘You didn’t
say this a few minutes ago. As I could tell you thought I was pretty awesome.’
He chased you into the kitchen.

‘Oh, my
god! Clothes, Seb, clothes! My neighbours don’t need this on a Saturday
morning.’ You pushed him back to the room.

‘It’s the
highest floor, no one can see us, Miss Also Naked!’ His arms got wrapped around
your waist and pulled you into a happy kiss.

‘Please
promise that you will tell me if you ever feel down again. Call me immediately!
I’ll leave some clothes here, so I can sleep with you any time you need me.’
His tone changed to serious for a second and you promised. ‘Maybe I’ll stay
more often than after one scenes, you know, that now you are my girlfriend.’
His light blue eyes were sparkling with happiness, and he couldn’t keep his
hands and mouth off of you not even for a second.

‘So, I am
your girlfriend now?’ You asked with your hands on your hips, laughing.

‘Only if
you agree.’ He looked you in the eye, waiting for your answer.

‘I’d love
to be your girlfriend.’ You laughed until he muffled the sound with his lips.

The
breakfast turned into a late brunch as you found your way back to your bedroom,
Sebastian showing you just how happy he was, making sweet love to you again.

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