For the future?

So, I am extremely pissed, because I am pretty much into this all organic and recycled clothing topic, to wear ethical, etc. It is still not perfect, I till buy stuff from non-ethical/organic producers but I try my best to find the best way, because I do believe that on a long term our life is depending on it.

(I’m really pissed right now. Off topic)

I’ll not foreshadow anything when and how we all gonna die because of this. We all gonna die that’s for sure, but I don’t know how and when, ofc. Still I think we are going to the wrong way and slowly but surely killing our beautiful planet.

I know that these products are quite expensive and not everyone can afford them, but I do think that after a certain level of income one should be thinking about this too. They should think about the future.

So, when one says he/she thinks it’s stupid to give that much money on these products, because he/she’d rather think about their kids and buy some stuff for them from that extra price to make them happy I always wonder whether they can think even a minute ahead?

I am thinking about the well being of the next generation too, I am thinking about them being happy too, because a new toy will be quite unnecessary when the air pollution will be too massive to go out, or the water will be not enough to drink enough every day, or have a shower.

So, I always want to ask these people whether they really think of that kid’s well being by buying them new (and very unnecessary stuff, which the kid don’t even asked for they just buy it because maybe it will be good later, but maybe they will just throw it away) stuff over and over?

If you do care about you children, than think about their future, when they will be 40-50. They still will be your children, but maybe they won’t have a future.

I need to write a summary in a couple of pages for my university about my experience, and I am sitting here in front of the blank page since minutes, and has no idea how to start.

Because honestly, I don’t want to go through it all emotionally. Losing my friends again, remembering the best time in my life, now when I had to return to my life which doesn’t feel like mine anymore. I don’t need to be reminded for long minutes how much i loved to be there to do anything there compared to ‘my life’.

I want to write that it should be obligatory, that everyone should go and experience it, but it would ruin all the fun. It’s not for everyone, and who doesn’t feel like it, they shouldn’t go.

Should I write that it worth all the difficulties all the dreamless nights before going, all the worries, because honestly from the moment I stepped on the plane until the moment I take off before Christmas it felt like a dream.

It’s a thing I want to share with my university. I have a blog about the whole thing, go read it, because honestly, it was not something I could summarise in a coule of pages.

It’s amazing how a kind, gentle tone and a pair of admiring eyes can change the sentence: ‘Your eyes are so brown!’ to the most adoring, loving one in the word.

Girl’s topic

I tried menstrual cup for the first time.

Okay, so by the age of 24 I got to the point that I hated both tampons and pads. I hated to use them, to change them all the time, to remember to buy a new pack and always keep some in my purse. The money I wasted from period to period is also ridiculous and the waste ‘I created’ is already big enough.

I was originally team tampon, from the very beginning, as I had 6-8 track and field trainings a day + swimming, so pads wasn’t an option at all. Now I’m doing cross fit 2-4 times a week, so they are still out of the question for me. But I wasn’t much fan of the tampons either. The fear of it getting stuck in me or start leaking during training was always there and by the time the fear of getting different diseases terrified me. In additional not going to swimming because of period was never an option and as the twine of the tampon was always out I started to hate it even more moreover I never really felt clean. Plus, it always made me very dry and it was uncomfortable to remove. All in all I got fed up with all the bullshit around the tampons and pads (which are big and too warm and itchy and moving around, so they were out of the question after 3 periods).

I started to use the tampons with the applicator, which here costs 2-3 times more than the regular ones and they don’t even sell it everywhere, so many times I had to go to 2-3 shops to find them. They were better when I was traveling or had to spend 12-14 hours at school, but didn’t solve my problems. It was right at the time when I moved to France, and where many girls from France and Asia said they use menstrual cups. They all loved it and recommended it to try if we feel comfortable with it.

Well, I bought one in Belgium finally, as they don’t sell it at home (I moved back to home in December) only in online stores, making them more expensive than in the stores abroad.

So, I bought the MeLuna regular cup, because the sport one wasn’t available, but it is just fine. Practice is highly recommended before the first use, try different folding methods and positions then find the most comfortable one for you. For me even after some practice it was hard to make it work for the first time, as it didn’t want to pop open but after some youtube tutorials I could figure it out. So far it’s very comfortable, no gross thingies hanging out of me, no leaking, or fear of it falling out. The removal is a lot easier than I thought and no dryness at all, which makes me quite happy so far. I can clean it easily, and as it keeps everything inside I feel a lot more clean too! Which is great! Therefore sexy time with hands with my bf is a lot more relaxed and enjoyable with it. (Yes, I’m such a terrible person that I give in to my needs during my period, and it feels fucking good.)

I’m going to do yoga later with it and cross fit tomorrow, I hope it will pass the test.