Címke: personal

Maybe I have a thing for smart guys

My bf talks 10 minutes about his research as an engineer. He is very cute and enthusiastic, me understanding nothing, but he is talking about really smart stuff.

My bf finishes.

Me: Strip!

So there was a thunderstorm tonight, which often gives me panic attacks because of an accident before. So tonight when I could hear it, I jumped on my bf, it was 3 am, so he was asleep, but he woke up for a second to say:

‘It is only Thor, sweetheart. He is partying, it’s ok. Go back to sleep.’ 

While holding me tight kissing the top of my head. 

I love him. He is perfect. 

Mean boyfriends

So, my friend needed to make a biopsy on her tits because she could feel a little something in it, and it felt off, so she went to the doctor to have the biopsy. The process left a not too pleasant looking purple, blue, black patch on her right breast. It was normal, so she went home, and being hell hot in my country right now, she wanted to sleep in panties only, but her bf was like: ‘sorry, but put on something because your breast looks terrible.’ 
Like… excuse me! Yes, it wasn’t pretty, but well they just stick a huge needle in her body and picked out  piece, obviously it won’t be pretty. But the reaction of the bf just shocked me. First, your gf maybe has some serious disease, second she just had a very painful examination, and third, yes she can see how it looks and is very self-conscious about it, she would need your support and love you moron. 

The most surprising was my friend’s rection, who immediately put on a shirt and excused herself for looking ‘ugly’ and promised that she won’t go shirtless in front of him until it disappears. I freaked out and asked her what will happen when she gets pregnant and her body most probably will change a lot, having a good chance that she will never look the same again, she will feel very self-conscious and her bf will say the same. ‘You look terrible put on a shirt.’ 

She said I was mean and I don’t know her bf, and I should apologise. I didn’t.

Same friend few days later complained about same bf, that even if they are using lube and trying to go slow sex is extremely painful to her. (Said bf has small dick.) But her bf said that she will get used to it, anyway she is his gf, with who should he has sex with if not with her, so she should just relax and try and get used to it. She agreed because well, it is her duty to satisfy him. Well, I could only scream while hearing this. 

Even if there is something wrong with my friend, her bf is definitely not kind, or compassionate or wants the best for her. 

I any man says it is your duty to satisfy him, just run. It is nowhere near to your duty. If any man says you look disgusting for any reason and at the same time he says that he loves you, get suspicious about it, and think your relationship over.  

Ok, so I needed to talk about my job offer today with my boss. He offered me almost the double of my current trainee salary, and now I should guess if it will be enough, for a non student life. Like no student discount for anything. How should I guess a salary for a life I have never had before? 

There is no better feeling than go to crossfit after a shit day. It 100% makes you forget about your problems, because you just try to breath somehow, and count the exercises.  

Too much lidocaine

I am at the dentist again. I can’t feel my tongue my bottom lip, my throat and I can’t really swallow either. And I am getting to be hungry, great.

My stupid wet dreams with Sebastian

Okay, so wet dreams about Sebastian is kind of intense nowadays. I had 2 today. Once there was an experiment (total random not related to the dream at all) about women having sex with 2 men at the same time. So just like out of nowhere he was inside of me biting the back of my neck, while Chris was laying under me… using his hands quite good until I came.

Than I was walking somewhere and he appeared behind me and he was inside of me in an instant, and fuck it felt good. And fucking real, stretching me just in the best ways and when I was about to come he pulled out and said he need to do stuff and walked away.

I guess it is the result of me not having any sex or anything since 10 days because of a sickness. And there are a lot to go… I’m gonna die.

Going into a new grocery store with SPD sucks. I bumped into 2 people and lost my bf twice had a terrible headache and a got dizzy in 5 minuets, while I was trying to run after my bf who clearly didn’t have problems with seeing everything clearly in front of himself and the products too. I love the store btw.

Why should your boyfriend cook?

Okay, so I don’t say he should cook all the time no matter what, he has to be Jamie Oliver itself. Not at all. I love cooking and I love preparing food for myself, for my friends and loved ones, so I definitely don’t say men should do it. I say he should be able to make an omlett, some other egg dish, a pasta or rice, cut some meat, to make it easier for you. It is not a big deal, it is like 10-20 minutes he can do that totally. But it makes a huge difference for you. 

A night for my mom, because my dad can’t make any food:
They get home 8:30 pm, they are hungry, so my mom starts to make food asap. A quick omlett with vegies. It takes her 20 mins, however she was at training, she is still in her training clothes and really just wants to take a shower a quickly wash her hair, put on some lotion, but this would take up 15 mins at least, and they are hungry so she has to make food first. When it is ready, and they ate, my dad cleans the table and do the dish my mom used to make the omlett. It is 9:30 pm now, and my mom is very tired, so she skips washing her hair and the lotion too. She doesn’t feel good in her skin, because she couldn’t take care of herself in a way she wanted. She goes to bed with this feeling. 

My bf knows how to cook. So, when we get home and I was training, it’s 8:30 pm. He offers to start to make an omlett for dinner, so I can quickly go and have a shower and wash my hair. It takes 15 minutes for me, so he sends some mails, and starts to make the omlett. When I am finished, I make the table and cut some vegies, and if my bf feels very creative I can even shave my legs quickly. So, at 9:30 pm we have ate, I have had a shower and washed my hair, I feel nice and clean. It is only 15 minutes what my bf takes from me in the kitchen yet it makes a huge difference in the way I feel at the end of the day. I do the same for him, if he was training I start the dinner while he has a shower. 

So it doesn’t need to be a big thing. A little 15 mins help in the kitchen can make huge differences. This is why I think a boyfriend need to know how too cook some basic dishes.